“Be still and know that I am God.”Psalms 46:10 In the fast forward mode of my life, I suddenly realized, that in the midst of the battle, I get to pause. In the midst of the emotional turmoil of my life, I looked up to see that I am in the eye of the storm. There is silence. There is a stillness I’ve been aching for, for longer… Continue reading Making Time
Purpose. What’s the point of everything? The present. Waiting for the other shoe to drop. Hope. Time. Used…wasted? Time…not enough time. Rest. Everyone knows you should sleep between 8pm and 6am…whatever that looks like. What about when you can’t fall asleep? There’s a pill for that. What about when you wake up at 1, 2,… Continue reading Questions
Today, I read a story of pain, isolation, loss of vitality, loss of hope. The end of a lifetime. An elder left drifting from moment to moment, day after day, encased in loneliness and sadness, the inability to communicate basic needs and wants, yet still understanding their loss. This touched me on a deep soul… Continue reading Finding Hope
Do you ever feel like you don’t belong? Not in your life, not in a group, not anywhere? That’s me…I just don’t belong. I am not new to this feeling; I’ve felt it since as long as I can remember. Too shy to speak up, to uncertain to have a voice, last one picked for… Continue reading Longing to Belong
God, how is this my life? I have a beautiful but particular cat who meows at all hours of the night to wake me if she puked, to let me know one of my kids' blood sugar is low or if my non-verbal kiddo wakes up in the middle of the night to play with… Continue reading This is My Life
As I struggle to provide for my autistic child the highest quality of life in the area of food and nutrition, I have sought out professionals in various fields of expertise. I talked with his speech therapist (also a feeding specialist), primary care physician, a nutritionist, put a call into his naturopath, looked up psychiatrists,… Continue reading Eating and Autism
“Peace I leave with you; My [perfect] peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be afraid. [Let My perfect peace calm you in every circumstance and give you courage and strength for every challenge.]” John 14:27 I… Continue reading Peace in the Uncertainty
I’m sure everyone has their own stories with the virus situation but boy howdy, having a non verbal kiddo with sensory and food issues sure makes things a bit more precarious. Ever since our family’s emotional upheaval (domestic abuse/restraining order/divorce), my 11 year old has been restricting his food intake. That alone is disturbing, but… Continue reading Covid-19 and Special Needs
A friend recently put forth a general question: “Is happiness a choice?” That’s a tough one. Generally speaking, we all feel we are entitled to happiness, I mean, that’s the American Dream, right?! “We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain… Continue reading Is Happiness a Choice?
Yep, it’s therapy day! And no matter how I prepare the night before, the chaos just seems to be a part of our life. Last night, I got one kiddo to sleep and I think we’re good to call it a day, only to see Tyler jump back out of bed and spend an enormous… Continue reading Being Thankful for the Win!
One of the hardest things as a parent is when your child is sick. It’s worse when the child is an infant, or non-verbal and cannot tell you what hurts or what’s wrong. When you have a medically fragile child, this is a constant struggle. The slightest cold can create a cascade effect in their… Continue reading Medically Fragile
Tyler in His Therapy Swing Imagine starting your day: wake up, talk to God, do devotions, read the Bible, shower, dress and ready to face the day! Now imagine that you’ve done all that, but it’s 8:00 am and you’re hours behind schedule… Welcome to My Journey! This particular morning I awoke at 3:30 am… Continue reading Therapy Day
In the fast forward mode of my life, I suddenly realized, that in the midst of the battle, I get to pause. In the midst of the emotional turmoil of my life, I looked up to see that I am in the eye of the storm. There is silence. There is a stillness I’ve been… Continue reading Making Time